Wow, I had the weirdest night last night. Well the day started out awesome; I was going over to my friend's house and we were going to make jewelery - we ended up making one necklace because we were bumming around and driving places as well. We had a party to go to and the location was about 45 minutes away which was fine, I said I'd pick up two of our friends one at 4:45 and the other at 5. Well, we ended up picking the first one up at about 5:10 and the other at 5:40 because of location and traffic. The party started at 6 so obviously we were going to be late. I'd never been to that friend's house before so my friend was going to navigate via street directory for me (I'm seriously thinking of getting a GPS lol). She was awesome but we ended up taking too early a turn and got a bit lost. The two guy friends were sitting in the back being so unhelpful and critical of us - they thought it was okay to joke like that - but I was under so much stress, especially since I haven't been on my medication. So it got to the point where I was so utterly tired of listening to one of the guys "directions" and criticism that I turned the stereo up way loud! Like crazy loud. I didn't want to turn it down straight away because it was kind of a pride thing, once I calmed down enough I did turn it down though.
Then the same douche thought it was okay to keep going and push me even further so I just absolutely snapped - and I can usually keep myself under control when around others. I just couldn't take it anymore so I yelled "If I hear one more critism about anything, you can get out and walk!" I said it so loud and so angrily I have to admit that I shocked myself. My friend sitting in the front and navigating turned to the boys and was just like "Don't push it." because she knows that when I get stressed I get really stessed.
We eventually get to the party and as I'm turning the car around one of the boys says "Where are you going, her driveway is there" I was so over it I snapped again and shouted "I'm turning the fucking car around!" Oh my goodness, I have never been so pissed off at my passengers before.
But what really got to me was that one of the boys is a bit of a brat and he kind of thinks of me as his personal taxi. He just assumes that I'll pick him up for whatever party is going on and he never says thank you for picking/dropping me off and never offers any petrol money to help me out - considering I'm always going out of my way for him. He's not welcome in my car anymore and he pissed my other friend off because he knew that I was angry at him and when she asked how he was getting home he just assumed she would take him - didn't ask her or anything.
The party itself waas freaking awesome! My friend's dad cooked up a feast (I know lol) and we roasted marshmallows over the bonfire which is oh my gosh, just so cool. They go all crispy at the edges and gooey inside - nom nom nom.... We were dancing and making jokes, playing pranks on eachother for a good few hours - one of the best parties I've ever been at actually :D
After we left the party we dropped the other boy off and he's cool, he's very passive, my friend and I got a really creepy bad feeling when driving on campus (because the boy lives in res at our uni) so we went straight over to her house to drop her off. When we got there we talked for like an hour and said goodbye, when I turned the key in the ignition - nothing! It wouldn't turn over. So we kind of woke her parents up with our talking. Luckily enough, though, her dad is a mechanic so he took a look at it and said the battery was dead. He jump started it, said "Don't turn it off until you get home" and then off I went.
Now I'm at home, I feel exhausted and awake at the same time... it's 1:40 in the morning and I have to work tomorrow - GRRR!!
Anywho, I'm going to try and get some shuteye. Night all! (or morning rather)
Violet!!
